Individualism.

My mind is a waterfall rushing with thoughts and sometimes I can't stop wondering why. 

I can't live peacefully knowing I have been convinced to be the person I am because of peer pressure. To be someone made up, to be someone fake and cloned. I want to be me, and simply that. The choices I make are mine, and the path I have chosen is because I have a vision and feel as if I know my own passion the greatest. 

I'm a very personal person who takes a lot to heart. Friendships are important to me, and even more so loyalty. Honesty and trust are what creates lasting friendships and bonds in my opinion. When I have a friend who is down, I'm down. I care too much most times, which is a good and bad thing. 

Time and time again I see people try and change for a person. Change for a relationship, change and not be happy. Let someone fall in love with the person you are, not the person you have created. You can run laps upon laps and degrade yourself before you feel loved. 

I think of the person I want to be, I see the flaws I posses and work at polishing them to make a better me. I think a lot. I usually never type it out though, I usually just sit and think staring at the lake, the ceiling, or whatever is around me. I need to be outside in order to feel free sometimes, ok most times. 

There are so many things we cannot change. We cannot change the life choices someone is choosing, we can only be there for them and try and help.

I guess my point of this post is to simply inspire people to be who they really want to be. Don't be nervous or afraid of what people are going to think. At the end of the day you need to be happy in your shoes. You walk in those shoes everyday, make them your own. When we open our mind to accepting other people our hearts fill up so quickly. We become understanding and we become more than just stagnant bodies. 

So look up, don't look down. 
Tomorrow will be what you make it.
You can make it better everyday. However, you need to start now rather than later.

Flaws

Without flaws we would not be humans. Without flaws we would not feel either. Flaws are ok. You are ok. 

It's hard to wrap my mind around the concept of a flawless world. A bunch of robots roaming the world with the same exact talents. We would all be the same. 

Some people are raised to burry their flaws and act like all is well. Others wear their flaws on their sleeve. I persoanally acknowledge my flaws and see them as learning opportunity. I was also born with a flaw of complete awkwardness, it's kinda neat, however at times I feel like the only one who understands what I'm doing. 

Embrace your flaws. 

"I don't have time to live my life."

Today as I was leaving Starbucks after a little studying, I noticed a girl very flustered walking with her head down as she had just ended a phone call with, "I don't have time to live my life." As I was packing up my backpack I heard her grumble a few choice words under her breath and sit down behind me.

Typically, I would have kept to myself and let the person pout about and make their day what they wanted of it. However, I knew this wasn't the time to just walk away. I've been in a place where I've been overwhelmed, where I've felt pressure to succeed. . I initially asked if all as well, and she responded with frustration due to her family pressuring her into nursing school because of tradition. She hated it, and couldn't ever do what she wanted to. This explained the phone call. So I lent a bit of advice to her before heading on my way

Living YOUR life is the only thing you have in this life. Many things are determined for you, however you choose the direction of where you want to go at the end of the day. Choosing the direction you go, is living your life. Society and our family may plant ideas and thoughts in our minds, however you really chose. If you aren't happy with what you are doing, society is controlling you in my opinion. You need to be an individual and you need to find your passion. Finding your passion is the best, and the only way to live your life. Once you find it you will know. Until then, take your time and find yourself, find who you want to be. 

Tears flowed down her face and she broke my personal boundaries with an awkward hug. I apologized for making her cry, and she told me it was what she needed to hear to grow in her confidence. I knew that I made her day when I walked away, and the smile on my face proved it. It's amazing how a simple 5 minutes can potentially change someone's life. 

You can be so much more with your confidence and character.

Our confidence and character build up our beauty, not just our appearance. So much more than money and clothes build who we are.

What am I good for? What do you want from me? Am I liked by him or her? Are they looking at me different? Should I change?

The questions some ask their selves out of doubt can withhold your true beauty. With confidence and your true character you build the happiest world for yourself. You build what makes you happy, and in turn what will truly make someone happy in the future. Don't change to be accepted or settle for being a person that isn't the true you.

Be you. Do you. Get happy.

Unacceptable Society

Everything I've thought about today has stemmed from this exact thought I had impulsively tweeted as I was irritated. Fed up with the frustration of negativity and sorrow being spoon fed to our youth.

@jnll: Acknowledging the unchangeable reality of what our society has become is agonizing. I cannot accept the unacceptable state we are in.

You can only fit so many characters into a tweet so I have more for you to filter and take in.

There is a pain I get from looking at my childhood compared to any childhood the current youth will have. We cannot stop the growing society we live in. We cannot stop technology, modern development, and we cannot stop the development of our ever changing world.

What this all comes down to for me personally is technology. My parents and grandparents didn't like the fact that I had a tape recorder as a kid and I would tape songs on the radio to listen to. Now, mom has a smartphone and laptop and grandma has an iPad and changed from a land line phone to a cell phone. Jobs have changed, bills have changed, and our technology has just grown rapidly. There was a time where my mom had checks only and no debit card, I thought that was normal and the responsible way to finance your money. Now 18 year olds are maxing out credit cards and will never know what a paper check is..unless they get a refund from a bill or the state. When I was a kid I painted our shed in the backyard a different color almost everyday. My dad being a painter didn't mind because it was left over paint from odd jobs, and I was free by myself, safe. I took walks in the woods, I made forts that had passwords to them with neighbors, and I had the imagination of a wizard.

Outdoor professionals are leading groups of kids out into what my childhood was. People are paying for what I see as freedom. Exploring is free, where and when you get there may cost you and a professional is required when there is a lack of experience but I am still baffled. I find the concept of sending my child out with an organization to learn skills very educating, however my parents did this with me and it made us closer and we share a bond with the outdoors and our family now. It is all how you are raised, and I understand demographics vary.

What it comes down to is our choices. It is our choice to either let technology engulf us in its flame, or let it help us for the better life we can have. Do not become dependent on it, remember to enjoy the nature and all it's beauty we have been gifted, and most of all share your knowledge. Sharing knowledge is so much more personal and better than telling a friend you learned it or saw it on the Internet.

Fighting to make it in this world through music.

Music has such an influence on our mindset and views. We can fight it all we want, but at the end of the day it does indeed inspire us to do the big and small things we do in our day to day lives. 

https://www.facebook.com/conditionsband/posts/10151634797580546

What upsets me the most is when amazing, talented, and kindhearted people like Conditions have trouble making it in the real world. The fact that they are not well known and a number one band is bittersweet. I know they have what it takes to be number one, however I feel as if not all fans would appreciate them as much as I do. Their music speaks the truth and refreshes my mind when I'm feeling lost. 

It is awful to see them have issues with going on tour because of financial reasons, and it reminds me that I am not the only one who has to make choices financially. I have a great respect for them, and they should be millionaires in my eyes. They should be paid due to their inspiration and due to their ability to speak the truth through their positive lyrics. There are hundreds of kindhearted bands and musicians out there that are struggling just like us, and that troubles my mind. Support singer/songwriters and grow an appreciation for their true love of music, it's not all about the media and Hollywood fame. It sure would be nice I'm sure of, but speaking to youth and society about troublesome issues and facts overpowers all and wins in my eyes. 

What do you value?

Our basic human want to feel beautiful and wanted are being tossed aside for the present feeling of acceptance, not even thinking of the future at all. Society is changing before our eyes. I feel like the minority when I look around and see the lack of values and the lack of care our society has for each other. Respect for a woman, respect in boundaries, respect in a relationship. RESPECT in general.

I think about alcohol a lot, I think of how it's crumbled my own personal world. I grew up around too much, I grew up where I would never put my own children. As adults we are entitled to relax, but where does the level reach excess? Do you have children? Responsibilities  A job? Because of my personal experiences I wish there were not a single drop of alcohol on this planet. It's ruined my family, and has brought many tears to my eyes. People do awful things when they drink, and say awful things they may not mean.

I've never felt the need to do what the cool kids did in order to fit in. Go out and party, do drugs, and sleep with whoever the wind blows your way. I've switched schools, I've been through the cycle. I have been a loner, and I have been surrounded by friends. My values never changed, always staying the same. I still have this value that many lack, I still stick to it, and it sets me apart.

I just wish society would see the beauty in who they could really be, rather than rip apart their beauty for the present feeling of acceptance.